We are almost 2 weeks into 2017 and I’ve been trying to write this post since the year began. Most “good bloggers” share their resolutions and plans for 2017, so I figured I should participate. The only problem is, I didn’t make any resolutions this year. I mean, I can’t really remember if I made any last year either so this isn’t really new for me. Something that has been popping up the past few years that I have been seeing more and more is choosing your Word of the Year. I’ve read about this on blogs, heard about it on podcasts, and it has been all over Facebook. Basically you choose a word that you want to focus on embodying for the coming year, although it’s hard to know exactly what that will mean. I didn’t choose a word last year, but I knew this year I wanted to pick a word. After doing some searching, praying, and talking with Husband I decided on my word for 2017.
E M B R A C E
1.to take or clasp in the arms; press to the bosom; hug.
2.to take or receive gladly or eagerly; accept willingly.
3.to avail oneself of.
4.to adopt (a profession, a religion, etc.).
5.to take in with the eye or the mind.
6.to encircle; surround; enclose.
7.to include or contain.
This word just seemed to make sense as I thought about what 2017 would hold. I thought of all of the changes that would come with Baby H making his arrival and how I wanted to fully embrace being a mom and raising this little boy. I also thought about this new place we are in and wanting to embrace this place as home and work on building a community of people here. These thoughts and plans drove me to this word, however 2017 is already proving to be completely different than I thought it would. I’ve quickly realized there is going to be so much more to embrace this year than I could have imagined.
On the 5th day of 2017, I received a phone call that stopped me in my tracks and brought me to my knees. My work project was being eliminated and I was being laid off effective immediately. I sat there in shock, my heart screaming “Why God? Why now? Why me? What good can come from this?” This was not part of the plan. At 7 months pregnant, I desperately needed to keep working and saving money and preparing for our little man. When I finally got a hold of Husband, he comforted and encouraged me and made plans to come home on his lunch break. Once home he held me close, let me cry, and assured me that God was good and there was good in this. Spoiler Alert: He was right. The past week has been good. I’ve rested, had a couple of appointments I needed to take care of, had dinner ready when Husband got home, and fully embraced this whole housewife thing. It’s still a little scary and unknown, but I’m embracing this time of change, rest and preparing for Baby H.
Then yesterday, God decided there were more changes I was going to need to embrace this year. While Baby H is perfectly healthy, my body isn’t quite cooperating and it is very likely he will be entering the world via C-Section. I’m having a hard time even typing that out. For those that know me well, you know how much I love all things birth. I’ve dreamed of a natural vaginal birth for quite a while (yes, pain and all). I’m grieving this change a bit… I’ve shed quite a few tears and imagine I will continue to in the coming days. But yet again, I know God is good and there is good in this. I’m working on fully embracing this new path and making the absolute best of it that I can. I will be writing about this more soon, I’m sure.
So here we are, 12 short days into 2017 and I’ve already had to start embracing quite a few things. I didn’t want to write this post. I wanted to hide and sulk a bit longer. I wanted to fight the change and keep questioning God. But, God is good and there is good in this. He is sovereign, constant, and knows exactly what is happening – even when I question it. I don’t know what else will happen in 2017, but I’m setting out to embrace what God puts before me. I hope you can do the same!